so, i was thinking today. i write music because I'm compelled to, i can't help it. i come home on my lunch break at work and write. I play music because i feel the need to express the things visually (and audibly obviously) that i can't on a day to day basis. They are very different. In a sense, its my own self fulfilling prophecy. And that being defined as 'a false definition of the situation evoking a new behaviour which makes the original false conception come 'true'.' I become 'dc' and cease to become Dan. Its my own alter ego that I've created to embody the things i don't like about myself. i know understand Marlyn Mason, Alice Cooper, Slipknot, who ever. I get it now. it makes sense. You become it. Or, rather, it becomes a part of you, no matter how bad you don't want it to. i never wanted it to. but, it fulfilled itself. Those two people are one in the same. I think i knew that all along and its a gigantic circle. They tug at each other. Right brain, left brain maybe? Dan wanted to be in a blues band, dc wanted to be in a metal band (guess who won that fight). Dan wanted to be an architect, and dc wanted to be a musician (again, guess who won). Dan kind of likes techno, dc wants to kill Dan for kind of liking techno. you see the give and take here. that list could go on for quite some time. everyone has their 'alter egos', its figuring out who that is that really makes you at peace with yourself. Accepting who both sides are, moving forward. I've always been that guy who thought he could fly knowing full well he didn't have wings. but he didn't care, he was going to figure it out and do it anyways. and i think he's getting there. Ten days until the show guys. Scott was in the hospital yesterday. J and I went to see him. Its hard to see a brother down, but we knew he'd get through it (and he did). and you know what, he's gonna be stronger then he was before. that's the kind of dude he is. you can't stop scott. no one can. planet Earth should probably be afraid.
This is a picture of Dan (hence the collared shirt), not sure where dc was that night. And Scott in the middle and J on the right trying to kiss Scott.
Cheers kids, I'm gonna say goodbye to Tuesday.
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3 comments:
Nice reflection.
I always like that you make me think about shit in my life.
I heard about an upcoming show, never have time to get on myspace anymore...shoot me a message and gimme the details.
Have a good day man.
I totally get this. I mean I'm a robot when I'm here, but in real life I'm just a lady made of flesh and cogs and bones.
Actually I'm a Gemini so you never know who's going to show up when I'm around.
Also -- my husband is a Gemini, so if you're hanging out with both of us, it could turn out that you're hanging out with like eight different people all at once ... even though there's only two of us.
What I'm trying to say in my own retarded fashion is that I get it -- I know what's it's like to be one part of my personality all at once and then a blend of parts later.
It might be a collared shirt, or a bull whip, or a guitar, or a computer that brings one part out or keeps another part in, but in any case, having an alter ego is pretty fucking cool if you ask me ...
agreed!
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