damnit...

have you ever felt the need to just go and hit a punching bag? I'm not a fighter really, so i have to do that in a 'musical' sense. i just got back from NS practice (with 3 cops in front of my house, but that's a whole different story). Being in NS is like a contact sport. Its brutal, it wears you out, and you're tired as shit afterwards. Not to mention a tad beat up. If you don't feel that way, then you cheated yourself and everyone who heard it or saw it. I suppose i never really realized that when i was in the band, but i do now. I came across some old ass video of NS in Chicago, today. I'll post it. anyways, long story short, it felt good to go blast for a bit. I don't think i could do that everyday. There's alot more to me than that. I love metal. That's a gimme, and show on the 22nd will be the first time in over a year i've done that with NS, and It's going to be brutal. But, B.O.H. is more who I am, all the time. More on that when i'm somewhat sober... Here's the vid from Chitown...

NARCOTIC SELF